Another Dream

C, another friend, and myself all snuck into the attic of a house somewhere near Collinsville because it had "the best view in the bay area". The curtains were closed and I got their attention and starting reciting some long, boring monologue (I recall in the middle of talking realizing how boring it was) about the history of the town, and how it was decided that this had the best view out of anywhere. I threw the curtains back, and we all gasped at how beautiful it was. I thought it was a little unsettling, because the buildings looked too close and the perspective seemed to be off. We snapped a few pictures and decided to go. Then, the building (which was now an airplane for unexplained reasons) started shaking and took off! There were paying customers below, so we didn't dare go downstairs. I tried to keep everyone calm, even though we had no idea where we were going. I prayed the plane would take us back to San Francisco so we could go home. The pilot came onto the PA system and said he got lost and was just going to land on a deserted street until he got his bearings. Once he figured out how to get there, we flew to Los Angeles, and were pretty upset. I wake up. FIN

Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl

Reading Harriet Jacobs has done a number on me. I had nightmares half the night that I was a slave escaping from my captors. I hid out in a swamp being constantly bitten by mosquitoes; I spied alligators drifting by; I heard my voice being called and saw the dim glow of torches in the distance. I knew that if I were caught I would die. I had the most stressful night of sleep since the late 1990's, and I do not believe that is an exaggeration.

I must pause long enough from my own superficial woes to say... What a goddamn impressive woman Harriet Jacobs was.

New Goals

For the next six months, while I am in school full-time, my goal is to use money as little as possible. The necessities include food (eating at home as often as possible), BART ticket, rent, insurance, and textbooks. The rest has to go if I am going to meet my goals. Having a home theater (thanks libber) will help, as free movies and tv shows provide nightly entertainment. I'd really love to intertwine my spending goals with my health-related goals as well. They remain the same as always: more locally grown, organic whole foods, less crap. I was a child brought up on junk food and tv dinners, and the life-long habit of going for convenience as opposed to quality is a hard one to break.

It helps to write this all out and put it in the public arena.

I just realized how boring my life has become. Lots of bite-sized tasks but no overarching themes or goals. I guess changing that is my one main goal. This year, figure out if I want to be a librian, therapist, both, or neither. Also go here more often when the weather is nice: